i wish i had beautiful clothes like this…

i miss it too, we used to have some good talks

i want her color hair, hell i want everything she has lol 

I wish i could leave here sometimes. Just start over with completely new people. Not so much because im tired of them, but because i feel them growing sick of me. And god knows it would be a relief to my heart, not having to see the faces of the men who inspire me to write.

and now its all starting to settle. i can feel all that boiling emotion slowing starting to calm, i cant feel it floating down to the bottom. and with it comes anger and distance. i dont want to be near him anymore. i dont want to be near anyone.

she was beautiful, and not in that designer clothes, red lipstick way. No she was the no makeup, and oversized hippie skirts beautiful. So really….who could blame him? he has a kind heart, and if she screws him up again, then thats ok. because he was never going to be here forever

there were so many things i wanted to write on here today, but i put them in my journel instead, in fear that you might somehow read them.